Wednesday, November 20, 2013
But some times, some days, I just need them to all go away. At least for a little bit. I need time to not have to interact with the outside world. Time to get lost in my own head, with my own thoughts. Or lost in the thoughts of another, in a book or story. Or mindlessly play puzzle games until I'm moving more on autopilot and anything and my mind drifts elsewhere.
I never realized how much "alone" time I got when I was working. I got 20 to 30 minutes each way every morning and evening, well almost, to myself. To listen to the radio or not. To think my thoughts as I drove down the highway. To prepare myself or unwind from dealing with people all day long.
You'd think I'd have plenty of that now that I'm home all day. You'd be sadly mistaken. My mornings are spent with my boys. Getting Boo ready for school and out the door and spending a little quality time with just Gak and I until he's got to get ready for work. Then either I've got to pick up a boy at lunch and we spend the afternoon together doing all kinds of things or I use the time to work on that whole finding a job thing, or errands and dealing with people in general. There aren't many afternoons that I get a nice chunk of time to myself to just escape the world for a few.
Also, I haven't been getting up at the crack of dawn. Gak has. And therefore I stay asleep, or mostly asleep, in my warm, cozy bed trying to eek out a few moments of me time.
But, Wednesday nights, at least most Wednesday nights in theory, I get a couple of hours all to myself. Boo is in bed around 7:30 or so. Gak goes to Scott's house for gaming. And I, get some blessedly quiet "alone" time.
So, pardon me while I take advantage of a sleeping boy and an "empty" apartment. I don't know if I'm going to play with yarn or get lost in a book, probably both before the evening is done.
Peace to all and may you get the quiet you need.
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
This evening I'm really thankful for two people. I'm thankful for my friend Steph. She's been there a lot for me, especially the past several months. Even if it's just someone to mutually gripe at and about the world with, that's been a wonderful boon. But, through her, I have met an awesome and wonderful woman and author. You see, she works with Lynda Gene Rymond. She's an author and has two children's books published and several more in the pipeline. We've been doing a monthly series this year of having women come in and talk about their careers and how they got there. Steph asked Lynda Gene if she would come and she said yes. And boy am I glad she did! All three of our speakers have been quite different. And really, they just keep getting better. Lynda Gene had our girls rapt attention from the moment she started talking almost until the end. She spoke to all of our hearts and souls, and I think many of the girls were hearing her on all levels. I know she spoke to my heart, not just my head.
And following the Native tradition that is a part of her bloodline, she opened and closed her talk with a song. I don't know about any of the girls, but I sure felt the power of it, it was quite tingly! I doubt the girls realized the power she was invoking, but I felt it.
Anyhow, I'm so thankful to have met such a wonderful person who happens to be a fun author. She's definitely someone I could hang with and go on fun adventures with. There were three things that struck me tonight. One, sometimes the universe will find a way to make you stop hiding your true talent. Two, put everything you can into the cauldron of your imagination and let it bubble. Three, "publishing a book is like letting a leaf go into the Grand Canyon, there is no thud".
Peace to all and may your talents shine through, your imagination bubble over and you release many leaves into the world. And may you also have wonderful people to share it all with.
Monday, November 18, 2013
Anyhow, today I'm thankful for hand made, warm, soft and snuggly socks. I finished my first pair since January or so this evening. I have them on right now. They're not perfect, they're a little long and a little wide, but they're so soft and wonderful. They'll be even nicer tomorrow in my boots hiking. I love my hand made socks for hiking. Thick enough to provide nice padding. Thin enough to not be bulky and weird. And since they're all at least 50% wool, they're nice and warm, even when wet and they wick moisture away well. So, yes, I'm thankful for socks and the ability to make them.
No, you can't have them. They won't fit (unless your feet happen to be about an inch or so longer than mine but not too much wider, then they'd fit you perfectly...). That's the other awesome part about hand made socks. Custom fit.
Yep, I have happy toes.
But, I'm off to bed because I've got a busy and early day tomorrow.
Sunday, November 17, 2013
Today I took some of my girls hiking at French Creek. Because of the iffy weather only 5 girls and Billy came. And there were 4 adults. (This is way more adults than required, but everyone there wanted to go for a hike.)
We probably did between 3 nad 4 miles today. Not a ton of climb, but enough to notice.
Friday, November 15, 2013
I know, I know I didn't actually post a blog yesterday. On Facebook I said I was thankful that the leader meeting was short. And I still am. Those things can be LONG and boring. I guess it was a light news month or something. (We did get to try the new cookies replacing the failed Mango Cremes from last year. They're a citrus cranberry crisp and they are delicious. I see many accompanying my tea this winter....)
But today I am thankful for what I should have posted yesterday. I am so very thankful for Boo's kindergarten teacher, Mrs. M.
We got his first report card Wednesday and we had our first parent/teacher conference yesterday. (Unfortunately Gak couldn't make it because he was home with Billy who got sent home sick... this way neither of his parents had to leave work.) Anyhow it was a very good report card and an awesome meeting with his teacher. She admitted she was a bit nervous after orientation that he was just going to shut down and withdraw, which would totally inhibit any learning. But he has surprised US all with how he is doing. He's growing by leaps and bounds with his knowledge and has only shut downand withdrawn a few times and then only briefly in the past month or two. He is much happier doing math than reading but loves his reading specialist Mrs. G. He also has made two friends and the three boys do well together. Boo will always remark if one or thr other was absent.
And I know a lot of it is Boo maturing and growing on his own. I know some of it is good parents. But I also know a huge part of it is the patience and skill of Mrs. M. I so thankful for her and her dedication to her students.
Peace to all and may you have good teachers in your life. Or more good than not, we've all had the not ones now and again...
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Anyhow, today I am thankful for my bread machine. That is because today I made my second loaf for the week already. In the past month almost I think I've bought maybe 3 loaves of bread, and two because it was "buy one, get one free" and potato bread, which is a total splurge for me. This means that while I may have gone through 5 or 6 pounds of bread flour, whole wheat flour and even some rye flour, I have cut way back on the cost of bread for my family. Not to mention it just plain tastes better, makes the house smell awesome and I can pronounce all the ingredients that are in it!
So, I'm thankful for my bread machine to take the effort out of making dough for bread. You see, I still bake the bread in the oven. The loaf is shaped better and the crust has a way better texture. But, I load up the bread machine and let it do all the heavy lifting for me.
Again, another somewhat silly thing to be thankful for, but not really. It's not silly to be thankful for the little luxuries that make providing food that much more fun, enjoyable, healthy and cheap.
So, I'm heading to bed before I snitch another slice (I ate way, way too much over all today and my tummy is telling me so, but.... fresh bread!).
Peace to all and may you have a small luxury that makes life that much more enjoyable.
Monday, November 11, 2013
Today I can't help hut post a thanks to the men and women serving this country. I know I do that every Veterans Day, but that doesw make it any less true.
I know everyone says it today. And, until about 12 or 14 years ago I probably said it but, I'm not sure how much I meant it. For you see, I knew very few personally who were actively serving or who had. Or I should say that I realized who had. But now, knowing who I know and having the husband I have, I realize how much I toom them all for granted.
While I may be a lousy friend when it comes to email and the like there isn't a day that goes by that I don't wonder and worry about Steve while he is overseas. I worry and I hate the fact that he's there, but I know damn right well he's who needs to be there. His team and the locals are in good hands. I just wish they didn't have to be.
I hear a lot about sacrifice and bravery and honour today. But, really, these kids aren't brave, they're just dong what they think is right and protecting what they believe in. They'll have the luxury of bravery when they're done.
So here is to all past, present, and future who believe in this land enough to protect it. And here is to making sure everyone who comes home gets all the love and support and care and dignity that they need and deserve.
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Anyhow I woke up this morning and I realized I never posted a thankful thing for yesterday. So, yesterday I was thankful for Saturdays. You see, Saturdays, at least during the school year, we've got a pretty good routine going on that involves a few chores and the chance to hang out with some of the "cousins". And yesterday, that was exactly what we needed.
It actually turned out to be quite a full day. We went to bowling and I got to hang out with Kat while Boo played with me a bit as well as Billy and Zoe. Then, Billy went home with his dad and the rest of us went to the diner to have some brunch and then both Kat and I had to do laundry. By the time the laundry was done it was 2:00. The boy and I came home for a nap until Gak came home. Then I had to run to the store and do something about dinner. Talk about a full day! But it was the good kind of full.
Today, well, today I think I have to be thankful for birthdays and happy celebrations. Today was full of them! We had lunch with mom and then back to the house for cake and ice cream to celebrate dad's birthday early, and mine even earlier. Then, this evening we celebrated Bethany's birthday family style. Her birthday is tomorrow and she'll be celebrating it with a "grown up" dinner out with her parents and close adults.
I think I have to be thankful that we have Bethany to celebrate her birthday. I thought I posted about it, but I guess in the chaos of the end of the year, I didn't. You see, Scott and Tabitha gave her up for adoption when she was born 20 years ago now. Scott had been trying to find her for quite some time, but gave up looking last fall. Well, last December, right before Zoe's Christmas concert actually, Beth found Scott and Tabby. It's been quite an adventurous year everyone getting to know each other and currently Beth is living with Scott. So, I'm very thankful that Scott and Beth have been reunited, even if there's been a very steep learning curve for everyone involved.
So, as I head off to bed, I bid you peace and both time with friends on a regular basis as well as to celebrate the good things.
Friday, November 08, 2013
So, my boy-o likes to "make cookies". So, I will admit that I used it as a bribe. It doesn't really matter what for, but I wanted to ensure some extra good behavior today, so I bribed him with making cookies. Double chocolate chip cookies at that. ( Find the recipe here: http://www.seasonsandsuppers.ca/salted-chocolate-brownie-cookies/ )
Boo's behavior was what we wanted, so after lunch and some quiet play time it was time to make some cookies. Yes, I will admit, I work math lessons in fractions into the deal. I make him work for those cookies. Partially, because it's a sneaky way to get math into him (even though he likes numbers way, way more than letters/reading right now...). Partially, because it's about all the work I'll get out of him when it comes to making the cookies. He runs and hides when I turn on the mixer. He won't help measure the sticky stuff. He likes to drive me nuts and play in the container of flour, but I think I finally convinced him to not use his fingers when doing this.... He's still very sloppy at measuring and doesn't understand the concept of holding measuring cups level. And, when it comes to the actual work of putting cookies onto trays, he might do one or two, and then he's out the door. Because it's too much like work.
So, more or less I make the cookies and he licks the beaters and eats the finished products. Oh, and if icing or other decorating is involved, he'll gladly do that.
Which means that the whole thing becomes an exercise in me letting go of my control freak ways in the kitchen. (Ask Gak, I learned very quickly that I can't be in the kitchen when he cooks... I'll just try and take over and all that does is make both of us cranky...) And I have to just let certain things go. And accept that I will be the one doing the lion's share of the work. And remind myself that he's 5, with an appropriately short attention span and skill set.
But, we had fun. We have some very delicious cookies. And, hopefully, we've added a few more good and happy memories to the boy's memory banks, even if it might have given me a few more gray hairs.
So, I wish you all peace and fresh, home made cookies and all the lessons they can bring.
Thursday, November 07, 2013
(Boo and I went to the pool Sunday and just happened to run into two girls from his daycare who are younger than him, but he usually plays well with.)
Anyhow, I think the instructor was out to kill us. According to the other moms the usual instructor isn't quite so high impact aerobic. I had fun. My hips are beginning to ache a bit from the stretching/moving. I will be going back again. Maybe not next week since I have leader meeting at 7, but I will go again.
I have a tendency to get into ruts and routines. And, after 2 years of dealing with this chronic fatigue and other baloney I have to, have to, have to get back into some kind of workout routine. I doubt I'll ever be able to go back to 5 days a week of something, but I have to do more than walk (fairly slowly) the almost two miles round trip to take Boo to school. Yes, I'm way more active than I was, but I need to avoid becoming a couch slug again. And the only way to do that is to keep moving. (I'm not going to go into my fear of overdoing it without realizing it or what adding work eventually to my routine will do when I'm experiencing exhaustion chills more often again....)
So, I'm going to wrap up this completely rambling and barely held together post and say good night.
So, try something new and different. You may just like it.